Last week, I promised myself to turn the phone and computer off during the holiday weekend. I did make one run to a client’s house on Sunday [I’m a recovering workaholic], but spent the majority of my time with my husband and these guys.

As I watched them play, I thought about how fast they have grown and wondered where did the time go?

I remember during our engagement, my husband and I named each child, declared their birth order and knew we would have a set of boy/girl twins. We have the email correspondence to prove it.

We also announced to our family and friends that we planned to have a total of six children. Yeah, I know…what were we thinking? This guy alone is three kids in one.

We also said that our children would see us enjoying our work and would know that they too could live their dreams. They are the living proof of our dreams coming to pass…

How wonderful is it that we can tell our children that we wanted them and dreamed about them before they were conceived. It reminds me of one of my favorite scriptures. What an honor it is to be a co-creator with God.

“Before I formed you in the womb I knew you, before you were born I set you apart; I appointed you as a prophet to the nations.” – Jeremiah 1:5

Raising three children under 5 is no easy feat and I’m the first to admit to have been on the verge of losing my mind. I had to trust God even when I couldn’t trace him. I often wondered what was happening to me. Recently I had a very personal conversation with another blogger about this very thing. As a single person, you only have yourself to worry about. When you get married and have children everything changes. No one tells you that you will experience a mourning period. It feels like you have lost yourself or the old you died.

I believe that something did die. My selfishness. What I regained was a new zest for life and yet another reason to live! Just because my dream demanded more work from me than I initially thought doesn’t mean I dreamed the wrong dream. It’s just a reminder to me that good things don’t always come easy.

These guys have made me stronger than I ever was before. I’m truly blessed for their presence in my life.

Sorry it took such deep introspection to simply say that I had a wonderful 4th of July holiday. How was yours?